Day 10. What is Jesus teaching you as a wife, mom, or friend?
(Or just woman in general?)
I love thinking about this because it shows me how much God sees, how much He cares, how much He is intervening in my life.
If you have been following you know that I have been struggling with some things and the truth is nothing has changed, except my perspective. I watched a Priscilla Shirer video the other day and a few things stuck out to me.
"If I love you enough to die for you, will I not love you enough to take care of you."
It was a good reminder. God cares about the details. The things that I see as "trivial", God cares about those things because I care about those things. They are not trivial to me, not really.
He is reminding me that He cares about my feelings, but more importantly my choices. What I mean by that is that I am the one who has the choice about what I think about, what I dwell on, what I choose to believe about myself. Either I trust Him or I don't.
I think about Ashton, and how he blindly trusts us. He depends on us for everything. He doesn't question when I pretend like I am going to drop him that I actually am. He just knows, I am his mommy, I take care of him. That is what I need to be like. God is my father, where I don't know how or where or why, He is going to take care of me. Trust doesn't need all the answers. Trust is just that, trust. Putting everything out there with open arms and saying, "OK". And that my heart, life, etc are safe with Him, He is trustworthy.
For all the things that I am weary to let go of because I am afraid my heart will be hurt, for my fear of not being who I think I should be or what others think I should be, of failing. God is teaching me that I say I trust Him, I need to actually do it. With every aspect. He can bring complete healing and freedom. He is God. He is able to do above and beyond anything I can ask, or think. That's a lot. He is going to do things so far outside my box and it's ok for me to expect that.
I need to stop thinking so smally about such a BIG GOD!