Well all, I am heading to a psychiatrist today. I am both apprehensive and excited to get help, to have someone to talk to, and mostly relieved. I have started having a hard time sleeping now worrying with non-sense type things. I am starting to think that anxiety might be a big part of what I am dealing with, but I’m no doctor.
You know what I think, that a lot of times I am consumed with what is wrong, or what MIGHT go wrong that it paralyzes me.
Back when I lived in Northern Ireland for a few years working with Youth for Christ we had a retreat.
It was one of the most interesting, helpful, and therapeutic retreats we ever had.
For one exercise we all had empty seats in front of us. We had to imagine ourselves old, towards the end of our life, giving our younger selves advice.
At that time I was worried about love, never getting married, never having those things that were of the utmost importance to me at that time. As I imagined myself old, I was so peaceful. I wasn’t nervous or concerned, because I had been through it all. My old self told me that I needed to relax, that things were going to work out. That someone would come into my life and love me, just be patient and give it time.
I wonder now, when I look at my life from that perspective what advice I might give myself. When I am old I want to be peaceful, full of joy, loving, and full of wisdom and beauty that exists on the inside even after any outer beauty fades.
I think this exercise reminds us that this is only part of the journey, that we have so much to learn and grow in. So many of us are just at the beginning and we are so consumed with our worries.
What do you think your older self might tell you
about what you are consumed with?
I thought little exercises like this might be a good writing exercise for some of us. To blog about things that make us more vulnerable with our readers, maybe more vulnerable with ourselves. I am going to write a post about what I think my old self would tell me now, and what I am going through. I invite you to do the same. We can have “Blogging Group Therapy”
I think I will call it “Heart Therapy”.
I will put up a linky and will give you guys the writing ideas a few days before for the post. Maybe a way to take a minute and connect with where we are in life right now, who we are, where we want to go, and who we want to be.
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I will put the post up on Tuesday with the linky and even if we only have a few I know it will be beneficial for us to even write it out.
I have received so much encouragement through comments and emails and I think this is a way for us to continue to encourage ourselves and our readers to be real, live and inspire from our hearts. Not who we want people to think we are, but who we are…even if that is messy and broken.