Living with my HEART outside my body6:34 PM
I have had my first traumatic experience being a mother
My little boy
hurt his arm
on Saturday night
You know how people say
"You know who someone really is when you put them under pressure"
I heard, "I picked him up and I heard a pop, I think it might be broken" and
I just started balling.
One, because he is ONE!!!
He can't have a broken arm!!!
and the second is we are between insurance right now and
I had been worrying something like this would happen.
Luckily I was at a friends house with my husband and another friend.
I like support when there is something traumatic happening.
They were there to reassure me as my little guy's
arm hung limp next to his body.
We drove him to the nearest children's hospital
and it turned out it was only dislocated.
I held him on my lap as the doctor popped it back in.
He hasn't even acted like it was sore, but he has been sleeping a lot.
I think he was over tired.
I am only at the beginning of this SCARY journey of being a mom!
He is a BOY, I have a feeling this will be the first of many trips to the hospital...
but that doesn't make me any less scared.
You know the depth of your love when your little one is hurting
and you just want to fix it.
When she was going to pop it back in,
I winced as if I was going to feel the pain.
A friend once said about motherhood...
"Welcoming to living with your heart outside of your body"
How true that is.
Just out there, so vulnerable.
This part of being a mom is just plain, frightening?
Can I get a wintess?? AHHH!
How do you guys feel about it?
How do you react?